roller coaster continued...
It's been a long week for V. Her friend has pulled back - pulled away as she can't seem to balance having a marriage and a relationship with a woman. She figures she'll have to leave her marriage before she can pursue a relationship. I understand that thinking... I wonder myself if one can truly love - or be in love - with more than one person at the same time.So, the past few days, I've loved V, listened to her, asked questions in a non-threatening way ( i think) and just given her what she needs. V says she doesn't want a relationship with a woman right now, she's going to just have to be content to admire and love women from afar - but I wonder how long she'll be able to do that. Because, if you are supposed to be with a woman... how can you suppress that? Or, for how long??
I'm much more calm this week as I have come to terms with some things - and am pursuing other friendships and such. Online friendships can be so helpful too! One is far away, the other... not so far away. I hope I can meet the person who is close by - soon! - as we seem to have much in common!!
(sigh...) it's good for a change to not be wound up so tight!!!
so... whatya think?
m.
posted by matt @ 6:00 AM
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Hi Matt
I've been reading though your archives. I'm glad your wife is more open to you pursuing friendships now as well.
I can sort of relate to how she may have felt at first - when I started exploring my bi side I thought that obviously girl-girl stuff is WAAAAAAAY different from girl-boy stuff, thus just because I was dating girls didn't mean my bf should be able to as well. I thought, a bit naievely, that only boy-boy stuff would be equivalent. But I think as you can appreciate, its the intimacy, not the physical stuff, that really can hurt.
I'm glad things are going well for you at the moment, and I really applaud how supportive you're being. It sounds like noone would ever be able to say you're not trying your hardest.
Take care and best of luck in the future!
Thanks, Red. It's rather refreshing to get this sort of validation from other women. I pretty much feel exactly that way... thanks for your support.
Hot, hot website you have btw!
matt
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