RE DISCOVERY

solice and solitude

The weekend was different for me, very different than weeks past. I spent a good portion of it by myself, running errands, shopping, cycling (much to the dismay of my five year old daughter.) I enjoyed it, I think V did too, actually. I'm settling a bit into a "new routine," which I think means only that my old habits and expectations are out the window.

I made a new friend on the net, and she's really true and honest and frankly, just nice. That too I think, along with my incredible load at work, is keeping me happy and busy. I've also started running again and will try to keep it up all this week.

I haven't kept as close an eye on V lately, but noticed the lack of sparkle in her eye. Then, this morning, she told me she's having troubles with her new online friend. They were set to meet in a couple weeks - now, apparently not. I think we have both pulled away from each other some... perhaps at my initiation, but I think we're both comfortable with that.

Oh, and I asked my good, good, good friend (who is like my brother I never had) about either being his roommate or just crashing at his place when he's at his girlfriend's house. He's known both of us for over ten years and while couldn't believe what I told him about V, he was supportive as he heard a similar story from one of his other friends a few years back. I don't know if I'll share a place with him or not... but I think the option is there.

So, I have a feeling of calm now. How long it will last, I don't know. But, I'll enjoy it while I can.

m.

posted by matt @ 6:08 AM