RE DISCOVERY

Pleasantville

Haven't posted in a while... but on the homefront, it's about the same, maybe a little better. Of course, we had a huge blowout over the weekend. V was mad at me because I got mad at her for being pissy in front of my coworkers. She says I scolded her in front of them (in public) but I remember that they were gone. However a couple of other people were nearby and our friend.

So, she was incredibly pissed and emailed and voicemailed many things about how "she gets it, it's over. You don't want me." Also, she says I have betrayed her by telling her "secret." (Which I suppose I do feel a bit guilty about as neither of us have talked bad about the other for ten years. However, I haven't been in the situation I've been in the last six months before now either. I don't think she fully comprehends that. Or, what I think is, she just works on manipulating me and putting ME on the guilt trip.)

Her conclusion? Let's get our finances in order and then I won't be stuck with her.

One interesting new note: Her voicemail noted that she always wanted someone to stand up for her and treat her right (which I apparently don't do.) If we ever split, she says she'd probably want a man to take my place, not a woman. That's the first time I've EVER heard that.

Thus, we go back to the fundamental problems that were there before she came out. Things I don't do around the house, the way I don't treat her properly, etc.

I realize today that I haven't finished my book, "Should I Stay or Should I Go?" Guess I should finish that...

Meanwhile... if I just have a smile on my face and act like everything is fine (which it is at least some of the time)... things go okay. It's kind of like living in Pleasantville. Or maybe the Truman Show...so... whatya think?

posted by matt @ 2:19 PM