RE DISCOVERY

round and round we go

... where it stops... NOBODY KNOWS!

Okay, so V went out of town to meet her very good, close, online friend. When she came back, she talked all about her disappointment. It wasn't the same as the online, phone call friend. Just different. "Where does the friendship stand now?" "Not sure."

Hmmm... seems very much like one of her other "relationships." Not that it matters to me much this time. But, I discovered that V wanted much more out of this friendship, even though she told me she didn't. And that may be what has cocked this up for her - but I'm not completely sure.

Now V is depressed again, back on the computer, back in the chat room, back on the newsgroup.

It's becoming clear what she wants/needs. It's also becoming clear to me that I'm just waiting things out. As I mentioned before, it's really important to me to make sure I do the right thing for my daughter. For now, that means staying put. But, I know that V isn't being very honest with me (or perhaps herself for that matter.)

This whole thing has been shoved into the "I wish I'd never told you any of this" closet. Not because V didn't want to hurt me as much as she'd rather do things secretly than have me upset. Yikes. My worst fear. Now I don't know what the hell is going on unless I do some secret activity of my own.

That's the latest update.

posted by matt @ 2:53 PM