RE DISCOVERY

"agreement and ceasefire"

I've had a couple of good conversations with V lately. The latest was over drinks and dinner last weekend.

"Matt, in many ways... we're over. We'll always have one big common interest, our daughter. And, I think we've both moved on - past the grief and sadness."

I agreed, feeling a sigh of relief inside. Maybe she won't fight me on all this after all... or - she has this false feeling that I will just hang around for her. I won't, but I'll give her a little time.
We also talked about how we'll be good friends in the future. I think it's very very possible... but we have to have our distance, space, divorce. Then it will work.

It's the time of year for cocktail parties. Thursday was one of the first. I had been drinking wine all afternoon, then V and I went to a meeting we both have interest in. When we got home, both a little tipsy... wild and crazy sex - the first in two months. "Just sex, no attachment" she said.. this time I believe her. "I have needs..." she told me. (Hey, I have had needs too... largely unmet for the last decade). I find it a turn on because I think she's finally letting go of me... and is open to me doing some of the crazier things I've wanted to do with her. More sex over the weekend. Maybe I can have some good sex before we settle this for good.

Then, more arguements today about the bills. Sigh... We are soooo over.

posted by matt @ 2:55 PM