RE DISCOVERY

short fuse

Last week I talked to my lawyer. Um...a new one, actually. An initial consultation about what to do with all this. Luckily, it was mostly good news - for me anyway. I won't be screwed over... unless she fights me. But even then... she's had plenty of opportunities to get her life together and on the move, despite my career, our family obligations, etc. My lawyer seems to think it would pretty much be an easy file and a judge wouldn't hand me my head on a silver platter. There's also the infidelity issue.

The easiest thing would be for me to have the house and custody. She could then run off and go to school, work, race bikes, whatever. I would just handle it all. I'd have to. She can't afford to keep the house.

Speaking of which, she is jobless now. She/we are sorting out all our things and gave away a TON of crap to charity. More this week. Also, seperate rooms are on the way. I will give her time... but not much. She hasn't moved one inch toward going back to school.

She has asked me a couple times if I think about having sex with her. Not really. "Why do you ask?" I said. "Just wondering. Are you sleeping with anyone else?" she said. She's not fooling me... In fact, she doesn't think about sex with me anyway... if I look back and read over these pages, I am reminded how she always is thinking of someone else between her legs. I think she's just horny - and "needs" me. Hmmm... we'll see. I think I'd rather hook up a webcam and take my chances. lol!

Regardless, it felt weird to call and ask for a consulation about divorce. Ten years ago, five years ago, I never thought the day would come. But it has... and I can't wait until it's over someday.

m.

posted by matt @ 12:58 PM