RE DISCOVERY

eye of the storm

The bad news: We have stopped having sex.
The good news: She's in a good mood lately, I'm understanding her need to link to the "other side," and we are somewhat more affectionate.

I guess it was my idea to not have sex. This after I was accused of only being nice to her when I wanted to - or we were going to have sex. Funny thing is, I have to just wait for her to initiate. Well, maybe I'm the one who does that too...

I spent her entire birthday week planning a "mindblowing sex week." I made little envelopes with the evening's activities - five nights worth. I did stuff to her I'd never done before. And, I think, she enjoyed it. I have tried to initiate the spice in our love life... and I've gotten some back from her, especially when we did the "kinkydares.com". Lately though, she wants to be "more spontaneous" and that shuts down all the planning. :(

So, I initiated the "no sex." Hell, I haven't been that interested in her anyway lately. We had a crappy night after New Year's, and I haven't felt like giving her a lesbian fantasy while I lick her. That just got old, I guess. Now, my sex drive hasn't dropped at ALL... I could do it every day. Well, can do it, I guess. So, we'll just drop it for a while. I hope that doesn't turn into a long term habit. Then again, maybe that means I can explore other partners. And she can too.

Best part of this week is that she's happier. I'm glad (breathing a sigh of relief.) I'm so damned stressed at work I just about can't take it. And I can't tell her this, because she then thinks I'm making it all about me.

M.

posted by matt @ 3:15 PM