RE DISCOVERY

not so depressed

V. is doing better. She's not so depressed and I think it's over a news group that has girls on there just like her. She wants to go to a retreat with these women - and I think it will help her a lot. I am still worried about when she finds a female lover... but I can't do anything about it, thus it's easier to just let her go.

We had a discussion last weekend. I become withdrawn and don't say much - she interprets this as being mean to her. Sometimes, I just need to pull back. And, yes, perhaps I'm sending a message that I'm not happy. She seems to resent that.

Anyway, she tearfully thinks I've made the decision that I will leave her someday. It's the whole "we could live across the street from each other" thing. She wants me in her life somehow. sigh... why is this so hard?

I have to work now. more later.

so... whatya think?

posted by matt @ 6:17 AM