RE DISCOVERY

...or maybe not.

I'm only posting on this thing today because I guess that's what you're supposed to do on a BLOG! So.. here goes.

I maybe had tenative NYE plans. But, haven't heard back from my friend, who is going through her own situations right now. And, turns out, V's plans have now evaporated like steam. For the second time, H did something to really hurt my girl and that makes me sad. I really am.
Of course, I don't know the whole story of what exactly happened and thus, have decided just to listen. And, you'll recall, I was so pissed last week about all this - I don't know what to say to her - and when I think of what to say, I think maybe I shouldn't say it.

So, apparently it's over with H. Or is it? Either way, welcome to day 106 of the roller coaster ride to hell! Either it goes back and forth with H - she makes me laugh, she hurts my feelings - or V. looks for someone else to fill the void and we go through this all over again. It's like all the crappy feelings from the days of dating are coming back again... but it's not MY dating - it HERS! I feel like screaming!

I do have at least one New Year's resolution I'll list here: Just because it's a certain day, or there is a certain event happening on a certain day - I won't assume any longer that I have plans with my wife. In fact, I'll assume that I don't have plans with her. I think she already assumes that. It's a fundamental change - and it's part of "FUNDAMENTAL CHANGE 2005."

Not sure the plans for NYE yet... I'm sick anyway.

M.

posted by matt @ 1:14 PM