RE DISCOVERY

thank you, darling...

Hmmm... an interesting weekend, but not for the reasons I thought.

First of all, I had big plans to work all day Saturday and then meet up with my online friend that night. We have actually met once (which is nice because it moves us from us "internet buddies" into a different rhelm. She's very sweet - and a little naughty too... a combination I LOVE!). We were looking forward to relaxing, talking and having a good time under the stars and an incredibly warm evening as the weather's been great here.

Ah, but it didn't happen. She's got a bunch of issues going on at home with her H. She's sad, perhaps heartbroken - even though she says she knew it was coming... that it was going to end this way. Still, she's hurting, and that's so sad. Of course, I TOTALLY understand she needs to be at home, and am just trying to comfort her or whatever I can do for her.

Meanwhile, I had a standing "date" with V sometime this weekend to spend some time alone. :) So, as it turned out that time on Saturday night was more available than previously thought - V and I got "caught up" with each other. Her body's all tan - she looks very hot, and she responded favorably to the attention I gave her. After multiple orgasms from both of us - something unusual happened. We both thanked each other for the great sex! I don't think that has ever happened in all the years we've been together. I chuckle when I think about it, but wonder what that means??

Later, V told me how I'm kidding myself if I think I won't ever get remarried (assuming we don't stay together.) I had told her some time ago that "if we don't stay married, I'm not getting married again." I meant it. I think I still do. I mean, if I can't make a marriage work with my best friend - then shit... who can I make it work with?? She says we bicker alot... despite the fact that we are extremely close and have a deep, deep friendship.

Of course, my comments about marriage were made before she came out. Even now, I still see that V longs to be with a woman. So, the way the situation looks now is like this: V and I are together, married, both trying to figure things out - with ourselves and each other. Lately, we seem to argue less, we seem to have more sympathy for each other, yet perhaps both wonder how long we will stay together.

I told V yesterday that if we didn't stay married, I figured we'd still date each other. She agreed. So then I thought, "why not just have an open marriage?" I don't understand V lately, I admit it.

Anyway, I looked in her eyes and kissed her before bed last night, feeling content. At least for right now.

so... whatya think?

posted by matt @ 6:47 AM